I Got All My Sisters With Me

It’s hard to believe that is has been five years since I got the call from Trish asking me to be a member of the Ladies on Life team. I told her “yes” right away and then after we laughed at my quick response, I told her I would pray about it, you know, just for due process sake. It was not a difficult decision to make at all because I trusted Trish as a friend, and I was so humbled by the opportunity to be a part of something that would extend beyond me. It was right in line with what I knew I was made to do, and judging by the many trials I was facing and had already overcome, I knew I had plenty to write about.

Once she made the call to assemble the team, we were off and running, writing two articles a month on any topic of our choosing. Everything was going great and the excitement was truly palpable. As the years scurried along and we began to receive feedback from ladies all over the country, I think each member of the team while elated, began to feel the intensity of writing something that could possibly help free another lady. Personally, I started to write from a place much deeper than when I started out. So much so, that there were many nights sitting at my laptop that tears streamed down my face as I typed each word. Something incredible started to happen. God was ministering to ME as my desire increased to minister to others.

Those moments have greatly added to my life and I would have been satisfied with them alone, but there is more to this story. Not only was I gifted with a chance to express myself through the ministry of writing, but I also gained new sisters in the L.O.L. team. The reason I say “sisters” instead of “friends” is for a particular reason. When I think of friends I think of people who, as the Bible would say, tend to love you at all times. They are your friends because you have something in common and it just works. However when I think of a sister or family, I think of people that were chosen connections for you before there ever was a “you”. It is a bond that is much stronger in the sense that you choose your friends, and at any point you can un-choose them, but with family, there is no undoing that tie. That is what the Ladies On Life team has been to me, family. My sisters. We have been through thick and thin and have gotten so close over five years even though our connection was chosen for us. We are all so different but we have been able to agree on one thing, women need love, encouragement, and a place to unwind, grow and learn in Christ.

I thank God for Ladies On Life and the members of this team. As we celebrate 5 years, I look forward to the many more to come, and knowing that I get to do this alongside my sisters, helps make for one amazing journey.

Dream Bigger

Have you everplaced a time limit on your dreams or goals? Whether it was a childhood dream to pursue a certain career, or a goal to visit a country on a mission trip.  Maybe for you it was to get married by a certain age, have X amount of children, work so many years, travel so many places, start a business, or have a certain value of money in your bank account.  Whatever it was, you more than likely said you wanted to see it by a certain date or age.  If you are one of the fortunate ones, that goal or dream was accomplished exactly when you desired it to be.  For others, it may not have played out like that.

This is dedicated to the “others”.  For as long as I can remember I wanted to do modeling and acting.  I never wanted to be a huge star, only just local or commercial work. Instead of Vogue magazine, I was very realistic and understood that I was more like a T.J. Maxx catalog kind of girl.  I did my first pageant at 16 years old, and at age 18 did local work here and there.  When I moved to Orlando, FL the dream was still there.  God opened many doors and I did a few odd jobs here and there but nothing substantial or truly memorable.  It became overwhelmingly difficult to manage school, a full time job and try to continue to pursue this dream that requires you to be available at all times.  That dream quickly became my “Isaac” offering and I gave it back to God no less than 5 times saying, “Here, you can have it, I surrender, it’s yours, I don’t need it more than I need you.”  I was completely okay with giving it up, although I have to be honest and say it was always still in the back of my mind as a, “So, what was that all about?” sort of thought.

Fast-forward six years since I last pursued it, and it all came back to me again.  I had been petitioning God about many other things in my life, and here comes this concept again, “what about modeling?”  If this was really a desire that God placed on my heart years ago, then He can still cause it to happen. Without hesitation or reservation I contacted the agency I used to work with and met with them. Like a whirlwind, they said they wanted to work with me again, and I signed a two-year contract.   God’s timing is perfect.  I can prove it!  When I was younger in that industry I constantly had to fight because there were certain things as a woman of God that I would not do.  But when you are in that age bracket that’s all there is to do. Now that I am a little bit older (not too much I hope), the majority of the work available to me is what I always wanted to do all along!  GOD’S TIMING IS PERFECT.  Not only is He faithful to His promises, but also He is perfect in the timing of those promises. I never would have thought at my age that I would be thrust back into this world, but now I can look back and say that there was never a more perfect time.

If you find yourself struggling to see your promises, dreams, visions, or goals manifest, you must remind yourself to dream bigger.  If it hasn’t happened yet, it doesn’t mean it isn’t in the works.  We have to expand our minds and our faith to be able to receive the promises of God.  If you are frustrated, it’s because your dream is not big enough, it has to extend much further than you.  Now that I am walking this thing out by faith, part of me thinks I am way too old to keep dreaming, but thankfully it is always overcome by the part of me that knows it’s never too late.