If you’ve followed the ministry of Ladies on Life and have read any of my posts on our website, then maybe you learned about my journey as a single mom. Being a mother has been one of my most favorite blessings to live out each day. Being a single mom has been one of the most challenging things I’ve ever experienced. Praise be to God, I have never been alone or forsaken. I have had a community of people that have poured into my daughter’s life and have helped to do some “heavy lifting” with me on this journey.
However, along the way I wondered if I would simply stay a single mom. I prayed and sought God about it. Having experienced divorce and the pain that comes with it, I was so very afraid to get hurt. I wondered if I would ever find someone who truly loved the Lord more than anything, and would be able walk out that love for the Lord and for my daughter and me. I would see others around me blessed with wonderful husbands and marriages. I wondered if I would forever be a spectator. I even came to the place that I surrendered my hopes and longings. I just wanted to do whatever God wanted me to do.
Then, from what seemed to come out of nowhere, from thousands of miles away, God sent a man in my life that accepted the challenge to love God and win my heart and my daughter’s heart. He sought the Lord, and took the careful steps to become our champion. What at one point seemed unthinkable became more and more a reality. What seemed like a dead dream buried deep in the recesses of my heart, turned into a miraculous resurrection. With time I found myself opening back up and knowing that this time I did not choose, but God did the choosing and I could trust God’s choice. The best choice.
So here I am, 3100 miles later (WA to FL), a thirty-something newlywed. I’m alive, I’m loving, and I’m being loved. I’m feeling so overwhelmed by God’s love, grace, and plan. If you’re reading this, and you’ve experienced the longing for a lifetime partner, I’m a living testimony that true love is real. I testify that God hears the cries of your heart. He knows the partner that is perfect for you. If He needs to bring him from the other side of the country or world, He’ll do it. I testify that God longs to fulfill the longings of your heart. I know it. He did it for me. He’ll do it for you. Thank you Jesus for giving me your very best! Thank you to all those who have journeyed and journey with me in some way shape or form. You all know who you are. I love you, and I thank you.
Proverbs 13:12 (NIV)
Hope deferred makes the heart sick, but a longing fulfilled is a tree of life.